I am comming into the last few days of school, 10 to be exact, and I feel that it is all comming to a close so quickly that I hardly know what I am going to do with myself. I feel that there is so much that I have accomplished, though at the same time I feel that there is just so much that I have failed at taking advantange of.

So that leaves the question of what; well, it is not all that many things when I truthfully put things into perspective, it is just small things of my lost opprotunities, and the many failed opprotunities.

I guess it is all the un-thefted kisses, or the forlorn homework assignments, and the many opprotunities to be out with friends, and just cut loose. (Granted I am very dilligent at making up for lost time)

There is just something in me that is telling me that I need to have, or do something before my time in highschool is up, somthing to remeber for the summer days to come. Although I hardly know what. I hardly know whether it is so steal the one kiss, or simply put my heart into something that I did not have faith in before.

I am pretty positive that I know what I would like to do, I am just wondering if I really should bother with going through it. I am stuck in some sort of time loop of that is really surrounding me, and what is really there.

But what is really there, I know that I have a nasty little habit of jumping to conclusions in my head, and another habit of second guessing myself before I even make my first move.

Something in me is telling me not to move at all, because it is questionably the safest place to ever be, but where will that leave me in the future, where will I go, or ever end up being if I never try to leap head first into the unknown, what ever that unknown may be.

If only there were some way to know where jumping headfirst would get me; even a glimpse to know what I was to expect from my actions will leave me.