So when given the opprotunity I tend to stress out about any and all things without much discrimination, and I hate to say it, but I am doing just that. Stressing out about all the things that are going wrong in my life, because nothing seems to be going right.

No some would say that I am severely overreacting, but in all actuality I am not, most of the time I have to say that I am mostly level headed, but it seems that I have found my boiling point.

If I were to simply say that I am just stressing about college, and all that it entails, I would have to say that I would be immature of me to say that there are not thousands of other people feeling the same way as me.

(So we all say 'man up')

Then if I were to say that I have to choose between the only family that I have to decide as to whom is, or is not going to my graduation I would have to figure that I have no real say in the matter. Even though I want both of my parents of get off the high horses and deal with eachother for a simple two hours so that I can just get along with the rest of my life, even though I am playing both sides of the field.

(So boo-hoo to me if it all blows up in my face, which there is a severe likelyhood that it will)

But that would leave the issue of what am I doing to make sure that I even get my diploma, I have become very lax in my studies and my desire to even pursue an education, what ever it may be of course. I need to make time to do what is left of my work, but it seems that I always have something that I need to be doing, but most of the time it is just that I am working doing other things.

(How wonderful for me, but that just means that I have to organize my time better because I fail at doing it otherwise.)

Though if that were the least of my issues, I would be just dandy, my problem is that I have more problems than just that. I always have to deal with so many things, and accordingly I have to 'grow up' and learn to deal with these things as an adult. The only problem that I have with all of this is that I am not an adult and I hate being told that I am a child. I have been forced to grow up in a society that does not permit me to ever be my own age and make the mistakes, or accomplishments of my generation.

I really want to say that my life is just not fail, and that I am being put at a disadvantage for all of these things, simply because I am the child of a divorced family, but I have to be realistic about these things and understand that I really can not spend my life playing that stupid little card everytime that I an issue that I can not logically see my way out of, for any and all reasons that may come time mind.

Truthfully I want to break down and see where it leaves me in this place that I call a reality. I need to know that I am given so way out in all the situations that have thrown me into a three dimensional cell, because that is what I am living in right now, a proficient laser barred cell that there is no key to.

The only thing that I am forced to really wonder is who put me in here. Was it of my own stupid volition so time between the millions of opprotunities that I have ranted my a course through my thoughts. Or is it something that has been something manyfactured by my disfunctional life, with a complementing sticker on it that proclaims *Made in China*

I am personally going to agree with the labeling. It seems so much more vibrant than the pessismist point of view that I am offering myself.

Isn't That Such A Fun Thought!