So figure this, (all of my personal thoughts have started with "figure this")....anyways. I has come to my attention that alot of things have changed in the recent months when it comes to me. It is weird to think of how many things have changed, and well how poeple have changed along with it.

For instance. I hate using him as an example, but Chris. He is a prime example, he has changed so much and it hurts me some time to lok at the person that he has become. Who has be become is my real question, and I have to wonder if he sees that person eating away at everything that I believed to have known in him. (Well, at least to the person that I see in him now)

Even though I could go on and on about how much he has changed I really am led to believe that it is simply not worth it, to sit and simply mourn the loss of someone I have really cared about over the many months. And I know that I will miss him, alot.

So now that I am attempting to turn over this leaf of mine, it has come to my attention that the world is not revolving in all  that much pressure in my life. It is more along the lines of a continous distracting cycle that I really have dug myself into. I know that it sounds like nonsense, and it probably does, but all the same it still manages to make some sense in my head. So give me the benefit of the doubt here.

What I mean with my life is that the world is changing around me, and it seem that I am not having all that much diffuculty keeping up with it for a change. I know that I am behind in the rat race that I call life, but at the same time it is not that I am falling behind right now. It is more along the lines of me keeping up with a pace that I have set. And I suppose that I am strangely pleased with it. (knock on wood)

Of course, now that I have pointed it out I know that my life is going to go swirling down the drain.

*but now I am getting off to help my slow friend with her homework....she is so speical ed!*